I am really hoping 2012 turns out to be a better year than 2011. Between splitting with Erich, my mother's cancer coming back and shattering my ankle, 2011 really kind of blew for me. And fittingly, New Years Eve really sucked too. BUT. The last time I had a really bad NYE, the next year (2009) ended up being one of the best of my life. And all the goodness was rolling in by February, and it just kept getting better. Hoping that happens again!
I'm trying to stay optimistic even though I've been pretty blue lately. So, here are some highs from the year:
Keeping straight A's, ending up on the Dean's List
Discovering that I really love to crochet
Finding out that I am far more independent than I ever thought I could be.
Inadvertently losing the weight I apparently gained while with Erich (between the breakup diet and being on crutches for 8 weeks, those pounds pretty much just fell off), and feeling much more like me in my own skin again
Becoming MUCH closer to my family--and hey, go figure, they rock!
Moving into a house with three random dudes I didn't know--this turned out to be one of the best things this year. Carlos, Jeff and Matt (and Cody, Matt's brother, and Ariel, his girlfriend) have become family to me. I don't know how I lucked out with our living situation. Plus, they let me keep my cats...I let Erich keep our dog, I don't know what I would have done if I'd had to give my cats up as well.
Figuring out who my real, true, close friends are. Not that they read this, but Ariel (not the one I just mentioned) and Shandi, holy crap ladies. I don't know what I'd do without you. Not to mention Alex, Cami, Nick, Ben, Kelly, and a bunch of others.
Reconnecting with all these friends from when I was 10, 11, 12 years old..who all grew up into these really awesome people!
I also met a ton of really cool people this year.
And, because I am me, the Jen Bloopers of the Year:
Shattering my ankle while getting out of a car really takes the cake
But falling out of a chair while flirting with a boy isn't that far behind
Nor was breaking my glasses in half at a music festival, and having to call my dad to take me to get contacts because I very literally cannot see anything without vision correction (though this one I can partially blame on Erich, since we were play wrestling when they flew off)
There were several others, but I can't remember them right now. Those are the first ones off the top of my head.
I'd like to say the good outweighs the bad this year, but honestly, it just doesn't. I have a shattered ankle and shattered heart on the mend. Both are steadily getting stronger, but not done healing yet. Both will take time. And frankly, I have a really simple resolution this year: let myself heal. I'm not going to try to change anything about myself, or say I'm going to start something new, I just want to let myself heal completely.
Here's hoping 2012 has some good surprises in store for me.
