I have no idea if anyone reads this.
Just in case anyone actually does, I figured I'd update for the first time in probably six months.
Breaking up with Erich was one of the hardest things I've ever gone through. It's been six months  since we split, and I still miss him like crazy. It's hard to describe though, it's a combination of things I miss. It's not exactly him as a person I miss (I mean, I still see him pretty frequently), it's more having a partner who knows me so incredibly well and is so in tune with me that I miss.
That being said, splitting up with him has turned out to be one of the best things to happen to me.
Don't get me wrong, I think Erich is an incredible guy. I have so much love in my heart for him, and I know I always will. But what I didn't realize when I was with him, and engaged to him, was that I was living my life for him, and not for me. I lost so much of myself that I wasn't Jen's Jen. I was Erich's Jen. And being forced to learn to be Jen's Jen has been terrifying and heartbreaking yet wonderful and exhilarating all at the same time. I'm more independent than I've ever been, and (especially after shattering my ankle and being forced to pretty much sit on the couch for six weeks...that was some good thinkin time!) happier than I've ever been.

Erich and I were not ready to get married. Obviously. I think we were both so excited at the fact that we really did love each other, that we kind of threw caution to the wind and went full-steam ahead, even though neither of us were ready. We got engaged way too fast. It hit me a while ago that I was Erich's first real relationship, and I personally think he needs to see what else is out there before he settles down. I've dated quite a bit and have a pretty good idea of what I want. And frankly, Erich has many of the qualities I want in a guy. And who knows, maybe God will work his funny ways and get us back together at some point. Maybe he won't. I'm definitely not sitting around pining for Erich, but I'm also not throwing myself at every guy that smiles at me. I just don't know what the future holds. And that's why I'm having so much fun with life right now. Life is too short to sit around being sad. Erich and I are still friends, we have "joint custody" of our dog, Vida, and I'd do anything for him. He's an amazing guy, still knows me better than just about anyone, and I truly wish him all the happiness in the world.