Just thinking about things

I just realized that today is two years to the day since Erich proposed to me.

These past two years have been crazy and turbulent and exciting and terrifying, great and terrible, painful and heartwarming.

Life has changed so much,even in the past couple of months. I cannot believe how fast 2012 has flown by. I was right in my prediction that due to crappy NYE, the year itself would be a good one.

I'll try to do a quick recap:
I finally, FINALLY passed Math 990. Long story there, between various breakups and injuries, it took me 3 tries. I now only have 3 prereqs left. WOO!

I lived with Jeff, Matt and Carlos for a year. Those boys became brothers to me. As did Matt's brother Cody, their friends Colby and Bubba, and Jeff's friends Derek and Alec. Though I knew Alec before Jeff did. The last night we had in that house, I cried so hard.

In March, I went out with an old friend, Arielle, one night. Little did I know that night would prove to change my life forever. She introduced me to her godbrother, Rob. Fast forward a month, and we were head over heels for each other.

The thing with Rob though, is that as crazy as we were about each other, he's got some severe issues. I didn't recognize them at first. He is in the National Guard and has been deployed twice...leading to severe PTSD. He has also struggled with drug addiction in the past.
Beyond that though, he was a really good guy. We got along spectacularly well in most aspects. I became really good friends with most of his friends. But after a few months, it was obvious that something just wasn't working. We decided to take a break.
I really think he thought that I would wait around for him forever. He didn't know what he wanted when we first split, and I think he figured out really quickly that he wanted me in his life forever. But his mistake? Not telling me this, and acting so cold towards me that I thought he was over it completely.
Then I went to a bbq at one of his friend's houses. Long story short, I had always gotten along with Alec well, and had realized in the few post-Rob weeks that I may even have a bit of a crush on him. Turns out these feelings were very mutual. Alec and I have now been dating for a little over a month, and he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Rob isn't taking it so well, but oh well he'll get over it. I guess he told Alec that letting me go was one of the biggest mistakes he's ever made, and that if I want him, never let me go.

Alec is making me realize there are good guys left. He is so fantastic. He's quiet and reserved,but has this incredible sense of humor. Being with him is so easy and natural. My parents adore him. He is so good to me. I don't even really know what else to say about him other than that I am very, very happy and excited to see where this goes.

Two more months of 2012. Hopefully they're good ones :)